How Anixety Can Compare To Drowning In A Pool
It began as nights where I woke up feeling my heart was going to beat right out of my chest.
It began as a feeling I was drowning and no one was around to pull me out of the water. It began as a fear of the unknown that eventually lead to sadness due to the realization that this was something I was inevitably going to have to learn to deal with.
“It” can be referred to as many things. An animal, a place or an object. But in this instance, “it” is an everyday phenomenon for myself and countless amounts of individuals who exhaust a good bit of their lives succumbing to anxiety.
“It” is anxiety.
Imagine yourself in the deep end of a pool. You feel a pressure in your chest, your head is the only part of your body above the water’s surface and your arms and legs are continuously moving to prevent yourself from going under.
Eventually, you’re going to get tired. It is a lot of work keeping yourself up when you feel so exhausted.
Just as swimming in the deep end of the pool can be, living your life with anxiety is all encompassing.
When you’re in that deep end and your head is the only part of you that is not physically in the water, and that pressure on your chest begins to be too much, you can either let yourself go under, or you can swim towards the shallow end. Sometimes, that shallow end seems too far to reach. Sometimes going under seems like the only option you have.
If you feel you don’t want to surrender yourself to the pool, begin to swim. At first it may seem as if you will never reach the shallow end. You’re still tired, you feel as if you don’t have enough air, and the water surrounding you is too much.
But eventually you will make it. You can stand again and are no longer restricted by the water.
If you have ever felt anxiety in any form, I am sure that this analogy is relatable. Instead of feeling the pressure of the water, you feel the pressure of the world. As opposed to continuously moving your legs and arms to keep you above the water’s surface, your mind is continuously looking for ways to keep yourself from feeling anxious. Instead of the pool being the problem, your mind is where the problems originate. It’s tiring, just as swimming can be.
When you opt to go under the water when things are too much, you are giving up. You are sinking so you don’t have to hold yourself up any longer. But when you are determined to reach the shallow end no matter how tiring it is, you’re conquering your feelings. Not allowing anxiety to define you.
The never ending “what-ifs”, fear of the unknown and constant thoughts of apprehension are part of what makes anxiety distressing.
With mental strength, love and support of friends and family and digging down deep to find your inner strength can be the start to getting out the deep end of the pool. Or in other words, the start to kicking anxiety’s ass.